At an early three weeks along, we found out we were pregnant. At almost 9 weeks, we lost the baby - still unsure of why to this day. Devastated, the word “baby” tore my heart apart for months. I will never forget that day, or the emotions that surround it.
Four months later, unbeknownst to us, our “Rainbow Baby” was conceived. Careful to not share the news too early, we were elated when were able to announce to family that Kendall Nicole was due on April 8, 2012. A high risk pregnancy resulted in extra sonograms and fetal monitoring. During a bi-weekly routine visit, our doctor told me that our baby was coming two-and-a-half weeks early, “today!”
I headed for the hospital with an unknown journey ahead of me. Waking up on that Tuesday morning - the first day of Spring and my late Grammy’s birthday - I had no idea that day would forever be one of the very best days of my life.
In the last five years, our little angel baby has given me so much joy; brought me to tears with pride; made me laugh until my cheeks hurt; taught me how to live, love and be a mommy; challenged me to new depths; encouraged me, pushed me, inspired me; seen me at my best and my worst; and loved me unconditionally, just as I have her.
She is loved by everyone who knows her, and she has yet to meet a stranger. She is outgoing and bubbly, full of everlasting energy. She’s beautiful and not just on the outside - she’s got a big heart made of solid gold, always wanting to help someone who needs it - sometimes even those who don’t. She’s funny - full of wit and spunk. She’s sensitive, her feelings get hurt a little easily and she wears her heart on her sleeve, but she’s resilient and doesn’t let it keep her down.
She’s smart, man is she smart. She doesn’t let anything slip by her. She observes, takes everything in, and then analyzes the information surprisingly accurately. She’s intuitive and inquisitive and she retains EVERYTHING.
She wants to be good, but knows the exact times she can get by with being “bad”. She’s dramatic, constantly keeping us on our toes. She’s a darn good big sister, and a proud little sister. She’s humble and giving, despite being a little spoiled.
She loves to play; she loves hugs (and sometimes kisses); she loves to be tickled; she likes to feel grown up, but likes to be “babied” sometimes, too; she is honest (except when she doesn’t know why her sister is crying); she loves to sing and dance and she does them both anytime and anywhere; she loves ice cream and pizza lunchables; she loves princesses and the color pink. She is unique, independent and exudes confidence. She never ceases to amaze me.
I often look at Kendall (and Collins) and wonder what I could have ever done in life to deserve someone so special to call my daughter(s) - I sure am one very lucky momma! Happy birthday to the girl who’s smile makes me smile, who’s laugh is infectious, and who’s mere presence can make anything that may be bad, seem immediately better. We are also wishing a heavenly birthday this week, to our Grammy, Adda Sue McFeeters. We are so blessed to have, and have had, you both in our lives.